Once again...
September 8th, 2003|| † ||13:56
Greetings once more...it feels good to be back. I have not been writing anything for quite sometime...for some inexplicable reason. Oddball thing is I haven't changed...or at least I haven't noticed yet. I felt the need to inscribe, for my visions encourage me...so I shall. *grins*
The time is near...for me to meet with my beloved for the first time. Countless images have gone through my mind regarding that special moment...so many I could probably make a movie out of em...:P But nothing can really prepare me for what I will really see on November 11...but I am currently saddened due to the fact that she has been attacked by a disease...conjunctivitis, namely. And it has become very severe, to the point any kind of bright light burns her eyes...and that is one of the most beautiful things about her...her feline eyes. At least I can still talk to her every now and then, talk about how she is doing and how progress goes on her healing...the most I can do to help her is comfort her, talk to her, make her feel better...and she says that is the best thing and she loves me for it...but I wish I could do more. *sigh* If I had control over diseases....but I don't....only chaos, panic, disorder...but my prayers are with her.
Umm, as I said, I've begun writing again....dwelling in my own Chaos, exploring new depths...who knows I may come up with next...I recently discovered a Polish band named Behemoth and it stirs that chaotic influence in me everytime I play Decade Of Therion. More food for the intellect....:) And I just got my hands into a lot of AD& D books, opening a whole new world to me...creativity is the key to successfully play this game, and I can't wait to really get into it. If only I had someone to play it with, and teach me how to DM, I can finally bring to life the world I've had in my soul for so long....only time will tell.
I shall close for now...visions sweeping me away into a state of nothingness...the need to define my subconscious one more time...until next time...†